Lucky (part 2)

referring to the previous post, at the same day i met some of my old friends and had a dinner together. there were 9 of us including me. after a lot ot talks, gigles, catch up to each others missing years, we all enjoyed the gathering. on my went home, i went over through a deep thingking :

• Friend #1 : i think she has a good life, married for about 3 years and live overseas where both of them have a good job. i always think she is lucky. she is beautiful, has a great family, quite rich with a big family house.there're a lot of stories that she shared with me that always thought she is a lucky person. but then i found out that she hasnt blessed with a child yet, even after she tried vitro fertilisation. wew..
  
• Friend #2 : she is a hardworker, smart and easy going. she is a rising star in her office. and she is enjoying all her hardworks in terms of money.i always envy her luck in career. but the thing is she hasnt found her love yet eventhough she has lots of friend
• Friend #3 : much alike with friend #2, only she has career less and she has a boyfriend to lean on
  
• Friend #4 : similar to friend #3 but minus boyfriend to lean, but i think she has someone nearly close to boyfriend
• Friend #5 : much alike with friend #3
• Friend #6 : much alike with friend #5 only this is a him, i once introduced him to one of my friend but it was just didnt worked out well
• Friend #7 : a married man, about 3 years too...and his wife is pregnant about 4 months, only her wife is having problem with her health. my pray goes for them
• Friend #8 : actually he is one of my colleague at the office. he has everything i guess, good life, great wife, wonderful juniors (2) only he live separated town with his family. he goes home to his family every friday of the week

and then me : i didnt have any serious complains of my life. i studied well, graduated well, has a quite good job, great husband and lovely son, and great family too...

so?
what can i ask for more?
how come i still not put myself as the luckiest person in the world?

and now i feel i do a luckiest person in the world

Lucky

i wrote :
some people are lucky while some others just dont

then a friend of mine wrote me back:
some people are lucky, but sometimes they don't realize that they're lucky

nice.i like it. and it brought me back in to call it as a great day

Burst Out

i really hate myself when i found myself at this point.i really do. cause there is something inside here that felt want to burst out. i want him to know.i want the world to know.but it's not supposed to be like that. all the energy i felt should be kept far away somewhere.

where no one can see it
where no one can read it

no one

not even

me

Cheap Things

Something had made me to go to pasar baru last monday, alone...sneaked out while raka was sleeping. i was planning to take raka with me, but he seemed to be very sleepy although it was only 11 pm. well yes.. he woke up at 6 pm, played a lot, ate a lot, then there went the heavy-sleepy .

i took the train instead the angkot, gladly i was lucky to be in time when the train arrived at the Stasiun Tebet
hup! got on the train that took me to Sawah Besar in about 15 minutes...somehow, i always enjoy using train as long as it's not full loaded :D

from Sawah Besar i took the angkot although it was not very far.. but it was a hot shiny day.. fiuuhh..... and stopped at the Metro Pasar Baru. instead of -menyalahi aturan menyebrang, tidak menggunakan jembatan-, i went up to the kios bridge.. and passed by the 'Aneka Photo' while sight seeing of 'the thing' with drolling heavily.. naaahhh....not now (just to please my self)

After the Tiara things... i went to the Passer Baroe Plaza to look for a pair of -crocs alike- slipper for raka. he actually had ones, but it lost at the dufan when i hold him while he was sleeping and i realized it when we are already at the car park (sudahlah di ikhlas kan...). i just love to see raka in those slipper.. looks comfort and goes well with his activity..

not an easy thing to find those slipper... when i finally saw them worth for 20k...and it took the woman so long to handed me those slipper and made my eyes catched another pair of shoes for me...-it was definetely her fault!..*pembenaran mode on*- well, i just thought i needed those shoes, kinda comfort and multifunction too... besides it was cheap only 29k.....

i was about to wear the shoes today.. but it just didnt match with my dress.. ha ha ha

i spent :
bolak balik :
Angkot : rp. 4k
KRL : rp. 2,5k
Crocs alike slipper for raka : rp. 20k
a pair shoes for me : rp. 29k
mount tea : rp. 1k
total spent : rp. 56 k...

cheaaaaappp.. but tired (soalnya banyak pake jalan.... enjoy sih pas jalan cuma membekas di betis.. pegel!)

Absence

Well... it's a quite long absence after my last posting...

at the first place, i meant to write everything in here, my thoughts, my things, my feeling... well, it's not as easy as i thought it would be.. :p

it just that i think i got my mood to post a lot of things in here

Kopi

it's been couple months i let my self to have a coffe time regurarly every day...i usually have it around 3 - 5 pm. Before i have it as a routine activity i cant even stand a half cup of coffee since it'll dry my eyes and made me hard to close my eyes to have a nice-tight sleep, not to mention dry throat, frequently pee-wee, and a not-usual heartbeat...

well.. gladly, now i can enjoy my cup of coffe without those things to worry..yeeee....
by the way, coffe does keep me awake at home when i got home from work to play with my cue adoreable raka..

speaking about raka, wwwoowwww..... i do greatfull could see all magics happened to him

Lately

My life has been messed up lately... i had a fight with my husband, loaded on work, not-well managed table, haaahh.... tired me up... hope much better for next week....

'S'

Another progress made by raka.. he can spell s

pertma ngeh pas dia bilang 'susu' tp saking seneng nya bisa ngomong S suka ngawur juga cih.. ngomong disitu biasanya dicitu sekarang jadi disisu ha ha ha....

Family Time

we spent last weekend at megamendung and we had a good time. there were 6 family of us : mine, dion's, nyo's, pak wim's, kak jo's and mabk rury's.

lucu deh, dulu terakhir kita pergi yg udah nikah dan bawa keluarga baru mbak rury doang, sekarang semua udah bawa buntuuuuttt... malah ada yg udah 2.. asiik juga, meskipun ngobrol2nya ga se bebas dulu, krn kita adjust sama waktunya baby-baby.... :D

ibu-ibu banyakan ngobrol seputar anak dan rumah tangga, bapak2 ngomongin gadgets, F1 racing, mobil, bisnis, dll...masih ada yg sempet maen truff... tp krn stamina cuma sanggup sampe jam 1 doang... dulu mah bisa sampe jam 3 or 5 pagi.. ha ha ha

ngumpul2 dan catching-up what've been missing was fun for every each of us....look for another trip next year

Meja

Fiiiuhh....hari ini hampir setengah harinya gw habiskan dengan ngeberesin meja dan file- file... the result is incredible!!!! :D why did i do that? coz i dont wanna get stuck again like those files when i get back here on monday!!!! when you have a clean table u have more good atmospheres to do your works... agree??? this is my before and after desk situation ....

sebelumnya mau paraf or tanda tangan dokumen aja setengah mati.. cari pulpen terkubur, cari 'pengokot' terkubur juga... sekarang malah gw nemuin iket rambut yg 2 hari ini gw cari... tp u know what?? kolega2 gw apalagi boss2 itu.. meja nya lebih parah... sampe warna coklat dari meja tuh ga keliatan... :)), untuk menghibur diri, kita sih bilang meja berantakan itu ciri khas kita.. :p

something

Something happened to me today and i dont know somehow i really felt happy about it.. :D was it ok if i felt that way??

sudah lah dinikmati aja.. jgn terlalu dipikirin... :p he he he...
ouw i bought a pair of new x.m.l. shoes.. 50% discount, brown, small tip with 9 cms high heels... wow...
still cant imagine wearing it all day at the office.... but i just love it!!!!! cool...

absen

udah lama ya ga posting disini.. entah kenapa, lagi penat!
lots of things happened, ouw.. i bought a new sofa to put in my living room... made of 'dark mahogany' coloured wood with lime green couch along with four pillows. just right and nice. showed strenght and warmness at the same time... ha ha ha.. i described it too much huh?

about my son, raka, gosh!!! he really made a lot of progresses, much nicer, much negotiable, but still is with his 'pelit'ness.. :((
what else, my mom-in-law is here until next thursday and raka seemed very enjoyed his time with her. he even said 'mau sama oma' when he woke up yeterday morning... wow!!!

about my husband, we are catching up the TV serial HEROES, he likes the films..(of course!!!) he even slept at 4.30 in the morning on saturday just to have the fourth CD finished. o ya.. we'll be having a 'piknik' this weekend at megamendung with some of my office/ex-office friends, it'll be fun.. cant wait

'cheeziest' smile in the world

this is the 'cheeziest' smile in the world..
he actually said 'cheese' when i took this photograph
my favourite pose of all :D

cute rite?

-Q-

Love

People said that love is wonderful..is it?

i wonder because i sometimes had experienced that

love tragic...

love hurt....

love came just a little too late...

love didnt wait but love let me wait in vain....

love squeezed your chest....

love choked your throath....

love burden your step....

love meant thousand tears....

but then i realized.. all those kind of loves that made u feel how wonderful it is when you find your love ones

-Q-

3rd Anniversary

"Happy 3rd Anniversary"

semoga 3 tahun ini terus berlanjut sampai tahun ke -30

dan terus berlanjut sampai 300 tahun lagi... :D

Makasih buat 3 tahun yang luar biasa :D

meskipun kita sama-sama masih punya banyak kekurangan,

semoga itu gak menyurutkan kita berdua dari apa yg udah kita cita2kan..

luv u....

Mood

Menurut wikipedia, mood itu beda dengan emosi (liat sendiri yaahh.. :p ) mood sendiri punya tendensi baik positif maupun negatif dan juga berlangsung untuk termin waktu tertentu baik singkat maupun lama. pada kehidupan sehari hari mood banyak dikaitkan dengan aktifitas, misalnya laporan ga kunjung kelar, biasanya kita berkilah 'lagi ga mood kerja'. yah memang ga bisa dipaksain. gw sendiri bisa ngerjain memo dengan range antara 3 - 14 hari tergantung 'mood' (dan tekanan boss tentunya... ha ha ha..)


setelah bekerja, terutama setelah menikah, mood gw relatif stabil. mungkin krn gw relatif setlle -secara emosional- beda dengan jaman kuliahan or waktu belom nikah. gw sendiri orangnya emang 'moody' dimana bad mood dengan begitu cepatnya bisa merusak mood bagus gw. waktu masih kuliah, gw punya lingkaran teman baik yg sangat mengerti fluktuasi mood satu sama lain dimana ekspresi muka udah mengatakan segalanya..yah terkadang emang bener, silent speaks more than words can say...


misalnya Giant -one of my great friends- yang selalu bertanya 'kenapa lo ki?' padahal gw baru aja meletakkan pantat di samping dia... she read my frown. dan begitu pun sebaliknya. hal yg sama terjadi antara gw dan suami. gw tau klo ada 'sesuatu' yg menggantung di pikirannya... bukan sok cenayang -which is thing i always trying to do :p- tp mungkin krn udah sangat mengerti. mencoba mengerti dan berbagi perasaan dengan orang yang kita sayang adalah sesuatu yang sangat menyenangkan walaupun yg dibagi itu adalah kesusahan. krn disitulah letaknya keindahan sebuah relationship.

selama libur lebaran sampe natal dan disambung libur taon baru, everytime i put on my make up, Raka always asked :
"Mama kerja ya??"
dan gw selalu jawab... "engga, mama libur jadi ga ke kantor hari ini"
but he kept asking the same question over and over again...
and this morning when i put on my make up, he said : "Mama libur kan?? "

............gw terkejut ternyata raka bisa mengganti kalimat tanya nya dengan pernyataan tersirat dari apa yg dia inginkan......
that's my son, smart rite...?

-Q-

Tahun Baruan di Depok

Taon Baruan kemaren kita bertiga nginep di Depok, rumahnya Oom Adi. Sama seperti tahun lalu, spagheti dan kerang jadi makanan pamungkas. Peserta juga ga banyak berubah, selain tuan rumah -Oom Adi dan Bulik Ret-ada Mas Ris, Dyn, Arfan, Lutfi. As usual, arfan dan lutfi baru ada di rumah pagi. Actually, it's always fun for me to meet Oom Adi's family tp banyak hal yg terjadi di tahun ini yg cukup membebankan mereka... tp as usual, laugh isnt a hard things to do.

mudah2an taon depan segalanya jadi lebih mudah...amiinn

Note : foto itu diambil pas taon baruan tahun lalu, Dyn-Raka-Mas