referring to the previous post, at the same day i met some of my old friends and had a dinner together. there were 9 of us including me. after a lot ot talks, gigles, catch up to each others missing years, we all enjoyed the gathering. on my went home, i went over through a deep thingking :
- Friend #1 : i think she has a good life, married for about 3 years and live overseas where both of them have a good job. i always think she is lucky. she is beautiful, has a great family, quite rich with a big family house.there're a lot of stories that she shared with me that always thought she is a lucky person. but then i found out that she hasnt blessed with a child yet, even after she tried vitro fertilisation. wew..
- Friend #2 : she is a hardworker, smart and easy going. she is a rising star in her office. and she is enjoying all her hardworks in terms of money.i always envy her luck in career. but the thing is she hasnt found her love yet eventhough she has lots of friend
- Friend #3 : much alike with friend #2, only she has career less and she has a boyfriend to lean on
- Friend #4 : similar to friend #3 but minus boyfriend to lean, but i think she has someone nearly close to boyfriend
- Friend #5 : much alike with friend #3
- Friend #6 : much alike with friend #5 only this is a him, i once introduced him to one of my friend but it was just didnt worked out well
- Friend #7 : a married man, about 3 years too...and his wife is pregnant about 4 months, only her wife is having problem with her health. my pray goes for them
- Friend #8 : actually he is one of my colleague at the office. he has everything i guess, good life, great wife, wonderful juniors (2) only he live separated town with his family. he goes home to his family every friday of the week
and then me : i didnt have any serious complains of my life. i studied well, graduated well, has a quite good job, great husband and lovely son, and great family too...
so?
what can i ask for more?
how come i still not put myself as the luckiest person in the world?
and now i feel i do a luckiest person in the world
i wrote :
some people are lucky while some others just dont
then a friend of mine wrote me back:
some people are lucky, but sometimes they don't realize that they're lucky
nice.i like it. and it brought me back in to call it as a great day
i really hate myself when i found myself at this point.i really do. cause there is something inside here that felt want to burst out. i want him to know.i want the world to know.but it's not supposed to be like that. all the energy i felt should be kept far away somewhere.
where no one can see it
where no one can read it
no one
not even
me
Something had made me to go to pasar baru last monday, alone...sneaked out while raka was sleeping. i was planning to take raka with me, but he seemed to be very sleepy although it was only 11 pm. well yes.. he woke up at 6 pm, played a lot, ate a lot, then there went the heavy-sleepy .
i took the train instead the angkot, gladly i was lucky to be in time when the train arrived at the Stasiun Tebet
hup! got on the train that took me to Sawah Besar in about 15 minutes...somehow, i always enjoy using train as long as it's not full loaded :D
from Sawah Besar i took the angkot although it was not very far.. but it was a hot shiny day.. fiuuhh..... and stopped at the Metro Pasar Baru. instead of -menyalahi aturan menyebrang, tidak menggunakan jembatan-, i went up to the kios bridge.. and passed by the 'Aneka Photo' while sight seeing of 'the thing' with drolling heavily.. naaahhh....not now (just to please my self)
After the Tiara things... i went to the Passer Baroe Plaza to look for a pair of -crocs alike- slipper for raka. he actually had ones, but it lost at the dufan when i hold him while he was sleeping and i realized it when we are already at the car park (sudahlah di ikhlas kan...). i just love to see raka in those slipper.. looks comfort and goes well with his activity..
not an easy thing to find those slipper... when i finally saw them worth for 20k...and it took the woman so long to handed me those slipper and made my eyes catched another pair of shoes for me...-it was definetely her fault!..*pembenaran mode on*- well, i just thought i needed those shoes, kinda comfort and multifunction too... besides it was cheap only 29k.....
i was about to wear the shoes today.. but it just didnt match with my dress.. ha ha ha
i spent :
bolak balik :
Angkot : rp. 4k
KRL : rp. 2,5k
Crocs alike slipper for raka : rp. 20k
a pair shoes for me : rp. 29k
mount tea : rp. 1k
total spent : rp. 56 k...
cheaaaaappp.. but tired (soalnya banyak pake jalan.... enjoy sih pas jalan cuma membekas di betis.. pegel!)
Well... it's a quite long absence after my last posting...
at the first place, i meant to write everything in here, my thoughts, my things, my feeling... well, it's not as easy as i thought it would be.. :p
it just that i think i got my mood to post a lot of things in here