It's A Girl........

Yes.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I succeeded in delivering my second child, and she was as we've been expecting, a cute and lovely baby girl. we named her RASENDRIA LINGGAR RANA and we call her with Rara. Rara was Raka's idea, and i think it went along well with his name too. a good idea... Raka and Rara. Rasendria was my husband's idea, Linggar was 'titipan' from my mother in law, and Rana was my idea.

Rasendria means : Tajam seluruh indranya while Linggar means wanita yg cerdas (kata mertua sih); Rana means sesuatu yg enak dilihat and it's also an 'istilah' in photography. Rara itself means gadis.

Rara was born in 17th Feb 2011. it's 7 days late from doctor's schedule, which was i didnt feel any 'mules' and no signs of birth either. therefor, doctor suggested to try 'induksi' method. and there was i at wed, 16th Feb 2011, about 21.00 WIB, INDUKSI!!!! i remember that time when we told raka that he should go home with my mom and ita. he wanted to accompany me.

R : Mama, kalau mama suruh aku temenin mama, aku mau... (teared eyes of course)

i tried to explained him that he should go home.. waktu itu jadi sedih, kyk mau pisah gimana aja gitu sama raka... he he he...

okay... back to the birth process... setelah induksi ttp aja mules nya masih nahanin.. bukaan udah masuk 2 waktu dicek pertama kali. pagi jam 6 dicek bukaan udah 4 ke 5, tp mulesnya malah ilang... masuk lah ampul kedua induksi... mules lagi, tp masih nahanin, di cek suster malah udah bukaan 8.. (loh??) jadilah daku dipindah ke ruang bersalin.. (jam 6.30 klo ga salah).

masih bermasalah dengan kontraksi yg sedikit. sampe dikasih induksi via infus. waktu raka dulu, setelah induksi metode ini mules nya luaarrrr biasa, tp pas Rara mulesnya aneh... ga tau lah ga bisa di ceritain. dokter udah dateng jam 7.30. ketuban udah dipecahin (dan berwarna hijau lumut) everything has been set up. kaki sudah mengkangkang, bidan dah standby tp kontraksi ttp ga kerasa kenceng. kira2 jam 8, semua menyemangati... bidan bilang ada kok kontraksi, perutku mengencang.. ya sudah... anyway the baby should be born now! akhirnya klo sedikit kerasa kenceng perutku langsung aja.... eeeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkk (mengejan!!!).

beberapa kali mengejan akhirnya Rara lahir sekitar 8.10 pagi. rasanya lega.and my hubby told me that she looks like him (again...).i got really shaking after the birth process. tired, hapy and relief at the same time. another unforgetable moment in my life. and after heard the first cry of the baby. Alhamdulillah.... we made it.

and here she was at her first day

and here she was when she was about 2 weeks

isnt she looks cute???

Baby Crib

After the baby crib was got into our bedroom, well... the bedroom is not as spacious enough as i thought. well our house, exactly it's my parents, is small but still perfect for my family. my maid decided to move her room near the kitchen where we used to put our not-used-stuff.it's her own decision and i actually greatfulled for that.

Today, Raka had a fever, he nearly didn'nt sleep last night, luckily my husband didnt mind to look after him. o ya, raka once showed me that he could imitate my signature ha ha ha.......

R : (was doing his home work) ma, aku udah selesai nih PR nya
Q : Sini mama tanda tangan
R : eh bentar bentar (he took his book back.... writing something)
aku bisa tanda tangan mama... tuh... bener kan, aku aja ya yg tanda tangan PR nya
Q : ............................................

Expecting

we're expecting the baby born at feb 10th, we checked up to the doctor last night, she weighted about 3.060 gr.

Entering the 9th MoS

My pregnancy is about 9 months, it's about 35 weeks... we, me and the baby, supposed to meet the doctor for a regular check up last week, but it was new year.. so, we're going to see the doctor this friday. doctor predicted that the baby will be born at the first week of february.

i dont know somehow i,m not feeling very 'click' with this doctor, unlike the previous doctor who helped me and raka 5 years ago. well.. the doctor is a good doctor anyway, maybe it's just my feeling.. :p. I kinda a bit nervous facing it, hopefully everything goes well as it was five years ago... (much more easier i hope)

I was planning to have some shots of my pregnancy, especially my belly. i once discussed it with one friend of mine. he agreed to take the shots, we discussed the concept, bu

t then the permit didnt go well from hubby. hubby said better to take the photo ourself or ask my sister to do it.. well it havent realized yet... hope i can do it this weekend.

I have to prepare for my leave at the office, luckily job list for this month and next one after well cooperated with the plan :D, so that i can manage it well ( i hope so) because i've some works that havn't been finished.o ya, hubby should close his motorcycle workshop this dec because of one and other things. i regreted it reminding all the sacrifices for that workshop, but maybe that's the best way.just need to be IKHLAS. another hope for this kind to goes well...

and raka is still amaze me from day to day...

it's predicted as a girl

we visited the doctor last friday (1st oct 2010). and from the USG, he predicted the baby will be a girl (it's a big grin on me.. :D)

let's rock the world with mommy baby girl.
my pregnancy is entering about the 21st weeks and the baby weights about 373 gram

Me n My Second Pregnancy

My Pregnancy is entering the 8th week. so far, it's kinda a little 'rewel'.

It's two lines

i did a test pack for pregnancy this morning and it resulted with two lines (positive).but hubby told to go to the doctor next week.well, i actually felt the sign of this pregnancy.i never had this kind of round stomach since my first pregnancy.my period is late 5 days behind which is it's usually on time.my boops get hardener.i looked more 'montok' and my skin feels softener.

yaa.. i think i am pregnat.well it's the best gift on my birthday today..but still is we're waiting for doctor's opinion

IUD

Me and my husband are planning to have another one child, today we are going to meet the doctor to take off my IUD. yes.we agreed to use IUD (intrauterine device) with a spiral shape.it has been 'inside' me for about 4,5 years.kinda a bit nervous.my husband's uncle is an obsgyn specialist, and he said that the best time to take it off is when i'm having my period.and i'm.it passed the 'flood' time.but still a bit odd to let someone else to look it.

wish me luck

Note : well, it's not as scary as i thought.just took a minute for the doctor to take it off and caused a litle bit an odd feeling,hot hurt at all.and the doctor also gave us some tips of how to 'make' a baby girl.yes.i want it to be a baby girl (jika Allah berkehendak tentunya).he suggested to wash my V with some like vinegar liquid.just wondering how would it smell.:D.i'm going to try it of course.

Me n Music

I fell in love with music since i was in elementary school. at that time i didnt have my own cassettes but i intensively listen -- accidentally of course-- some of my father's favourites. name it as Rhoma Irama, Ebiet G. Ade, Nasida Ria, and some dangdut else. they're all quite good music actually.the arrangements, the lyrics, the harmonizations. and untill now i still enjoying some of Rhoma Irama or Ebiet G. Ade or those classic dangduts :D...

for me, music itself is a media to express almost of my feeling, it is a mood builder, it is a friend when i'm in mood or not.not just listen of some music, i also interest to learn some musical instruments and i fell for guitar.a reasonable instrument to learn at that time and of course i depended on some of my friends to teach me.it's a hard thing to learn guitar and required a lot efforts not to mention that i didnt have any guitar yet.it was on my high school and then some of my best friends 'patungan' to buy a guitar as a gift on my 17th birthday. my first guitar!!!.thanks guys!!.it's not an expensive one but i love it.it accompanied me while i was having a hard time or a good time in bogor during my college.until it broken and didnt sound perfectly any longer.and then i bought my second guitar with my own money in 2004.still not an expensive but i like it.

and it was during my college, when i found that harmonica is unique. i dont know how, but some of my friends found out that i was crazy about harmonica and they bought me one as a gift on my birthday.why is it harmonica?i dont know.it produces a magic sound.it blow my mind away to a happiness and a free feeling.

I actually love piano. but my fingers cant stand to learn it :D.nowadays, i've no longer have enough time to play those instruments.beside, my mom always said like this :"dont you think it's better to read Quran rather than play a guitar??" he he he.... and here i am.. just listening to music that i like, that brought me to a happiness and a free feeling....

Homework

Since last January, almost everyday Raka went home with a homework from his school.i remember his first homework, draw a short-straight-line with 5x5 matriks (5 columns and 5 rows).and he showed me his already-done homework and said :

R : Ma, PR nya udah aku kerjain, kata ibu guru harus ditanda tangan
Q : o ya? mana? (i put my signature on the homework page)
R : ya mama.... kok di coret coret (a bit angry face) kan ditanda tangan ma
Q : lho ya itu tanda tangan mama...
R : tanda tangan ma, bukan ini

then it took me about almost 10 minutes to explain that it is what we called signature, and he stopped 'ngeyel' after our maid verified that it is my sign (tragic..)
maybe, he described tanda tangan as a hand mark :D

o ya, about the homework, raka did his homework by himself everyday and i (or my husband) just need to put a sign there when we got home from work.and the day after tomorrow, the teacher will mark the homework with star signs.the more the star means the highest 'pontenan'.at average Raka have two stars for his homework.

i once asked him how many stars that his friends usually get for their homework. and he explained it range between 1-4 stars, but there are some student who get a-bold-head (they didnt finished the homework).
according to my chitchat with 'ibu2 TK' especially the one who get 4 stars for almost of his homework, his mother assisted him in doing the homework 'supaya rapih', she said. she usually erased and pointed where to draw the shape. "klo ga gitu ga bisa dapet bintang 4"

one or two star doesnt matter for me.it's about an appreciation for raka for his initiative finished his homework without being told.sebenernya pr nya sudah dikerjakan dengan benar, cuma saja kurang rapih dan line-up nya berantakan.terus??? kenapa mesti mendikte sesuatu yg sudah dikerjakan dengan benar?

Love is Hard

i have one activity which i called my own time that i've been doing for last couple of months . it's a time when i choose to take a walk on my way home instead of jump up into angkot. and just realized yesterday how much i love it. it's about 10 minutes walk from St. tebet to home with my earphones on that playing 'my tunes'. it might the only time when i get a chance to drown into those tunes i love and let my mind flies to anywhere it wants at the same time. sometimes i really get drown into the tunes that's playing (and put me to an-almost-hit by-car sometimes :p). i should tell you i really really enjoy that moment...

and yesterday i drown into this tunes

Love is Hard (James Morrison)

I see lovers in the streets walking
without a care
they wear it out loud
like there's something in the air
well i don't care

They're treading lightly
Nothey, don't sink in
There's no tracks to follow
they don't care where they going

and if they're lucky
they'll get to see
and if they're really really lucky
they'll get to feel

and it kicks so hard
it breaks your bones
Cuts so deep
It hits your soul
Tears your skin and
Makes your blood flow
it's better that you know
That Love is Hard

Love takes hostages
give them pain
and the power to hurt you
again and again
but they dont care

I Was There But I'm Not

Have you been in that kind of situation??
I did.. couple of times...

I was there, I saw them.. but i just didnt get into them
why??

i should ask my self first, and i did, i think i know the answer

.....................

I Failed the Test

some one tested me...
and i failed.....

i did??
yes i did fail the test
but it's OK, this is the way it has to be
sometimes things went far away from your expectation
sometimes things better not to be expected
sometimes someone doesnt meet your expectations
and so're you

but what is the sorrow for??

I HATE U

I HATE U

I HATE U

I HATE U

I REALLY REALLY HATE U

Secret

Actually, i hid some thing(s) from my husband which i always wish that he would never known about it. it was a mistake(s) but i know i never want to do it again.

but what if we reverse the situation where my husband was hiding something from me and accidently i found out about it.

i cant stand with this situation anymore. but i just want him to make an inisiatif first.

Hurted

it's been a long long time ago since the last time i got this hard hit. well then unfortunately, i cant still as though as i thought i would be. the tears still roll down in anytime and anywhere they want to.i felt reluctant to gohome yesterday, but i remembered what my mom said about not to leave home in any worst condition of your marriage.i went home, finally, after spent about 40 minutes at the bus shelter of cawang, shedded my tears, thinking and try to clear my head.but i picked up raka first and at home in almost 9.

he was sleeping........
until the morning came..........

he always does that..............

better be sleeping rather than trying to make up with things..........
or with me...........

so, how long will you be sleeping hubby?
how long?

how long will you try to have me back?
to win my heart back...?
cause u got a lot of chances....
when the words of 'maaf' seems not enough, sometimes it's only need to be complited with your act with some of another words...

that's that baby...
i dont know what was i thinking when i finally decide to send you the sms-es

i still couldn't think....

Ga Jadi

Ternyata barang yg gw ceritain di posting sebelumnya ga jadi kebeli karena ada fatal error... jadi dibalikin, padahal udah naksir berat ama paket lensa nya.

dan sebagai gantinya, jadi beli baru deh dengan lens kit std (18 - 55 mm), tpp gpp.. ttp suka kok

btw anyway...
this morning i accidentaly found something that put me in an odd situation. between torn apart and being reminded about mistakes i did in the past days. i really dont know how to respond.i really love bursting out all of my anger but at the same time i took this as a thing that i deserve.

it just didnt fair. but i did an unfair things too.
but why??????? why should be this way?????

why my husband?

why?

Praying

Semoga barang yang gw beli senilai rp. 7,1 jt nanti bisa membawa keberkahan.... (apa sigh)

anyway, this is a hobby only, hanya saja semoga gw ga bosen untuk belajar dan terus belajar....

(the goods is still on its way to me from Bandung... ga sabar pengen megang)

Damn

I saw this adv yesterday :

Detail Produk


Nikon D40x kit 18-135mm + VG
Kategori : SLR-Kit
Merk : Nikon
Kondisi : Bekas : 93 %
Harga : Rp. 7.249.999,00
Jumlah persediaan : 1
Nama Anggota : Erick Suria Mulyadi
Tanggal Posting : Selasa, 20 Jan 2009, 13:44:05 WIB
Keterangan:
Kondisi 95%lengkap box dll
SC <20rb>

VG merk Jenis

kit-nya 18-135mm yah, bukan 18-55mm (kit-nya D80)
optik lensa ga pake jamur dll
bonus SD 2 gb buat yang ga nawar
Mohon jgn tanya :- Lokasi di mana ? ==> dah sy tulis..
- Boleh kurang nggak/nett-nya berapa? ==> langsung tawar aja
- masih ada ngga ? ==> kalo ga ada dah ga ada di thread
- masi garansi ngga ? ==> kalo masih, pasti sy tulis..masi garansi sampe ....dd/mm/yy

Tulis nama barang yang sedang ditanyakan (sms)
Terima TTBandung, jl. Sultan Tirtayasa no. 17
081 224 77 288 (Erick)
081 221 63 602 (Heru)

www.gudangkamera.com
ym : ruthndul88ym
: ahmadpahlawan

Terima debit BCA/kartu kreditgaransi fisik 1 harigaransi fungsi 1 minggubuka jam 10-18 setiap hari termasuk sabtu & minggu

and.. this conversation happened just a minute after i saw the adv :

rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 1:54:34 PM): selamat siang..... mo tanya soal d40x yg ada di FN pak....
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 1:54:43 PM): bole
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 1:54:55 PM): klo 7 dapet ga.. "D
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 1:54:58 PM):
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 1:55:42 PM): tambahin 100rb deh..
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 1:55:51 PM): lokasi di bandung yah?
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 1:55:59 PM): yup
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 1:56:21 PM): tambah 100rb tp udah termasuk ongkir?
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 1:56:31 PM): kirim kmna ?
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 1:56:39 PM): saya di jakarta
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 1:56:55 PM): kantor di sudirman, mungkin kirimnya kesana
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 1:57:31 PM): itu kit-nya 18 - 135 ya ?
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 1:57:42 PM): yup..
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 1:57:43 PM): brb
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 1:58:40 PM): seeeppp ?
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 1:58:53 PM): bca 7770159649 erick suria mulyadi
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 1:58:57 PM): alamat kirim ?
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 1:59:10 PM): saya bisa Dp dulu ga pak... book...
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 1:59:17 PM): full amountnya baru bisa hari kamis
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 1:59:25 PM): sisanya kapan ?
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 1:59:29 PM): dp brpa ?
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 1:59:34 PM): 500?
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 1:59:49 PM): kamis tuh bsok ya ?
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 1:59:59 PM): lusa... sekarang selasa
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 2:00:01 PM): tgl 21 jan ?
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 2:00:07 PM): seeppp
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 2:00:15 PM): okeh....
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 2:00:16 PM): bs 5jt dulu ga ?
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 2:00:21 PM): masalahnya..
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 2:00:29 PM): sy kudu belanja lg nih
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 2:00:42 PM): klo 5 jt nya hari rabu gimana?
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 2:00:50 PM): baru ke kuras nih rekeningnya
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 2:00:56 PM):
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 2:00:59 PM): ya udah..
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 2:01:04 PM): DEAL !!
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 2:01:15 PM): sekarang 500 rb dulu yah.... booking fee
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 2:01:23 PM): seeep
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 2:01:33 PM): besok 4,5 juta
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 2:01:40 PM): terus kamis sisanya
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 2:01:46 PM): ok
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 2:01:56 PM): barang dikirim klo dah lunas ya ?? he he he...
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 2:02:06 PM):
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 2:02:11 PM): ya dong
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 2:02:14 PM): ini sama bapak ahmad?
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 2:02:21 PM): yup
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 2:02:22 PM): ada nomor kontak pak?
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 2:02:32 PM): 081 221 63 602
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 2:02:32 PM): saya kiki 0811920136
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 2:02:38 PM): 022 701 81 791
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 2:02:57 PM): nanti klo 500 rb nya dah saya trf saya kabarin ya...
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 2:03:05 PM): btw sd cardnya include yah!
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 2:03:21 PM): kalo ga nawar tuh
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 2:03:30 PM): yah.. kan nawarnya cm 150
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 2:03:39 PM): plis pliss... he he he
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 2:03:39 PM): hehehe
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 2:03:51 PM): sy kasi yg 1gb deh..
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 2:03:54 PM): 2nd
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 2:04:04 PM): siiipp...
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 2:04:17 PM): sececpatnya yg trx nya...
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 2:04:21 PM): btw itu kondisinya seperti yg ditulis kan yah.. masalahnya ga liat barang nih
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 2:04:30 PM): sy mo cabut dulu
ahmad pahlawan (1/20/2009 2:04:34 PM): garansi bos..
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 2:04:42 PM): oke.. nanti saya sms soal 500 rb nya
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 2:04:49 PM): thx pak!
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 2:13:53 PM): bos... 500rb udah di transfer nih.... mo difax bukti transfernya ga?
rizkikomalasari (1/20/2009 2:16:42 PM): ada no fax nya?

I must be crazy doing this thing.... and i just made the full payment today....

We celebrated our 4th-anniversary las Friday (16/01). i took a day leave and planned to go to Dufan with my hubby. since it's a wet season and we worried about the 'banjir ROB', we canceled the plan. so there were we confused without a plan.

and he said he need to go to Mahameru first to give his employee some 'receh'.ok, and i went along with him. and did some banking stuff at Tamini square. about 10 am, we finished the banking stuff and decided to go PS to redeem some Sogo shopping vouchers.it took us to 11.30 am to finish the process. since it's friday, i let my husband did the 'Jumat'an' while i took some window shopping with a pair of Zara discounted-grey-shoes as the result.then we had a lunch at bakmi GM (not a romantic one that i've been dreaming of). after the lunch, we discussed what to do next. 'movie would be fun' i said.. and we checked what movies were playing at some cinemas. nothing interested him.and he suggested to go home coz he wanted to take raka to mushola for 'jamaah magrib'. then there were we... towarded to home..

over all, it was far far away from what i dreamed to have for my 4th anniversary. but well, it's ok.. we might do better next year.. so that's that...

btw... about the Zara sale-shoes : not quite comfort to wear, but it's ok, hope i'll get used to it and i bought a new pair of casual-Airwalk shoes too today (shoes?? again?). i bought them to meet my need of a though-casual shoes for daily wear especially to catch the bus up.

that's all